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The secret

Apr. 5th, 2008 | 12:03 am

So I watched this program/documentary called "the secret". It's about making your life be what your want it to be.

So one of the first part is to think positive about what you want, and focus about your wish and visualize yourself having it.

I started immédiatly, writing down things I really want. One of them was about finding a good boyfriend. And there is that guy I like, who has been ignoring me untill... two minutes ago, he just called me, asking me what I was doing, he wanted to see me.
So I don't think this is a coincidence!! I guess I choosed it and it just happened.

I feel extremely happy, I'm so gratefull!!! I don't know where this is gonna go and I haven't thought about it yet but we'll see!


Day 9 ABC

Oct. 30th, 2007 | 08:13 am
mood: blah blah

Weight : 117.7 lbs  gross!

Today I can have up to 500 cals. I'll try to have less but I'm pretty weak lately...


BF: Special K bar 85
       Coffee  5

L: 2 sl low cal bread 90
    1 sl low fat deli ham 25
    1 tangerine 35

D: 1 special K bar 85 

Total 325... I hope I can stick to that.

I'll try to work out an hour tonight...

Update: I'm 116.6  yay!

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Oct. 29th, 2007 | 07:28 pm

So what I thought was right... I gained water weight! This morning I was 120.5 lbs and tonight I'm 117.7lbs... tomorrow I'll probably be back to 116 ^_^. 

I'm sooo relieved.

day 8 ABC

Oct. 29th, 2007 | 07:17 am

Today I have to fast, I didn't stay in my calorie range during the weekend. That's because I had alcohol... on both friday and saturday night!
But I don't feel that bad, because for once I didn't stuff myself with food when I got back home drunk!
Of cours I gained Weight, I'm pretty sure it's water weight cause I kept drinking loads of water yesterday and I went to the bathrooms only once...

I'm so anxious about going to college this morning. Friday night I slept with this guy and he has the exact same classes as I do. Which means I'll see him 8hours a day and 5 days a week... :( I hope he won't tell his friends. He is actually one of the cute guys... and there is always drama going on about him and his friends. I really don't want to be a part of this drama. 

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Oct. 26th, 2007 | 07:44 am

 So I'm at 116.8! lost 2.2 lbs since monday!

Today is 100 cal day.

I'll probably fast!

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Oct. 25th, 2007 | 09:11 am

 Scale didn't move :(

Oh well... I'm having 400cals today. I'm doing that bootcamp thing actually.

So my menu is:

BF: 1cup lite soymilk 70
       a handfull berries 30

L:  2sl low cal bread 90
     1 sl low fat deli ham 25
     1 tangerine 37

D: 1 special K bar 85

total: 337cal

I hope i stick to this plan!

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Oct. 24th, 2007 | 09:09 am
mood: stressed stressed

Today I planned on eating 300 cals.

I did some weight training this morning for about 20 min. And i'm ready to go to college. I have this huuge presentation thing today about chemicals regulation and lobbying. Sucks.

So far I had:

2 cup lite soymilk: 140cal
1special K bar 85cal
1apple 70cal

Total today: 295 cal!

Just in the limit!

And I lost 1lbs i'm 118! yay

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Oct. 23rd, 2007 | 07:33 am
mood: accomplished accomplished

I lost the pound I gained! so that's good!  4 more to go untill monday.

Worked out 30 min.

So far I had:

2 egg whites + splenda 35
1cup coffee 5
1 sl reduced calorie rye bread 40

1 apple 70
1 special K bar 85

1 cup soup 55
1 special K bar 85

 Total : 375  let's say 400 to be sure.

--> Not bad. 

Ok!! tomorrow ... 300cal!

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Oct. 22nd, 2007 | 08:52 am
mood: optimistic optimistic

Ok... new week = fresh start.

So I gained a pound over the weekend. I'm not going to freak out. It's monday morning here and I have untill next monday morning to change that. So 7 days and 5 lbs, thats less than a pound a day. I can do this. I will do it.

So far I had 
2 egg whites with splenda. 35cals. 
1 green apple. 70cals
1sl. reduced calorie rye bread. 40cals
1 special K granola bar 85 cals
1 cup light soymilk: 70cal

total today:  300 cal 

And I did one of the hiphop abs videos which must be around 150 cal... but i'm just guessing.
I walked a lot around college... so I did pretty good today!

I'm gonna try and do 40min on my stationnary bike before I go to bed.

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Oct. 21st, 2007 | 11:21 am
mood: frustrated frustrated

 Today started off really bad... I just had a cookie :( purged...

But i'm gonna try to make something good out of today. 
So I'm just gonna have water today. And workout. 
And work for college cause I have like a ton of stuff to do.  I need to stop procastinating.
What's wrong with me... I usualy have a lot of self control. Now I feel lame, like I can't even say no to a stupid fattening cookie.
By next monday, I will lose 5lbs. It's not a lot I know... but I need to set a little goal so that I feel stronger and gain confidence when I reach it.